Anger?? Are you sinfully angry with someone in your life? Read on if this is you and even if it's not you.

Good afternoon fellow bloggers, followers, friends and family!  So today's sermon was on sinful anger and I was guilty of harboring anger in my heart for years against both my parents.  I was angry at my father for abandoning me at the age of 3.  My Mom was in turn angry with my father and took out her anger on her 3 children in return.  My Mom raised us in church and we had great role models at church to look to for guidence and yes I still keep in contact with Sunday School teachers, Youth Ministers and Pastors from my church I grew up in through facebook.  So if I make a big deal about facebook that's why is I can keep in contact with those who helped raise me through some pretty tough years growing up.  I have a lot of great memories that I will always treasure because of being part of a loving church family as a child.  Anyways got off track...I was very angry, bitter, and unforgiving even as a child of God.  That wasn't the life that God intended for me to live.  It was one of the hardest things to forgive my father for the hurt and pain he inflicted on me through his actions.  I felt justified in my decision to harbor anger.  One Wednesday as I put my feet on the floor getting out of bed I felt this overwhelming peace come over me I knew that it was the Lord and he was telling me that I need to forgive him and release that anger to the Lord.  At that moment I felt that anger that consumed me begin to release and fall off and then I felt at peace.  I have never had this much peace in my life as a Christian.  WOW God began to change my heart in ways that I have never knew before.  As far as my Mom I forgave her years ago for being so angry that she would take out her frustration with words and actions.  She never physically abused us it was more emotional abuse.  I felt worthless and that I had no purpose in life.  Emotional abuse to me is the toughest to work through because it deals with your self worth and value and it really puts a strain on your relationship with the Lord.  The way you view God and the love He has for you.  I thought God was out to punish me for sin and that goes against everything I was taught growing up in church.  I knew in my head that God loved me but in my heart it was just overwhelming to me due to the lies that were fed to me through Satan.  I hope this is makiing some since to someone out there.  It's hard to explain at times.   As I study God's word and His Holy Spirit heals my heart those feelings of worthlessness are slowly being replaced by God's great love He has for me as His child. 

Life's circumstances...How do you handle those?

Good morning fellow followers and bloggers!  Hope you all are having a wonderful day!  Sorry I haven't been around much lately the family has been under  the weather and visiting the Dr. and the conclusion was we all have head colds.  It's no fun when the kids and husband is sick makes for a cranky household.  This too shall pass....it's just a circumstance in life no big deal don't stress over it!  I'm trying to not let those life circumstances pull me down but they are there to make me better in this life.  You can choose to let them build you up or destroy your life...this is one of the things Pastor Bill and I have been talking about this week.  Heart issues are hard issues to go through but God has put them there for a reason.   I have not been doing a great job at keeping up with my Bible study this week due to illness and my energy level hasn't completely been restored yet but I will get back on track.  So the question is this week is does Jesus care for you?  There are days I must admit that there doesn't seem to be anyone who cares for me and the circumstances in life are just way too hard.  Pastor Bill gave me some scripture verses to read this week let me encourage you to read them too.  1 Peter 5: 1-14.  Slpit them up and pray about them and ask the Lord how this applies to me and what can I do to apply this to life?   Well I hope this helps you in your walk with the Lord.  I have so much to get done today better get busy!  No naps for Jenny today like I did yesterday when I somehow slept for 3 hours and accomplished nothing yesterday.  I'm feeling more energized today though so I can get done what needs to be done!  YOU CAN DO IT!! 

Anointed, Transformed, Redeemed A Study of David! With Priscilla Shirer, Beth Moore, and Kay Aurthur

Day 2 Centered on God!

David was choosen by God to establish him as king. 

1 Chronicles 13: 2-4 says And David said t oall the assembly of Israel, "If it seems good to you, and if it is from the Lord our God, let us send everywhere to our kinsmen who remain in all the land of Israel, also to the priests and Levites who are with them in their cities with pasture lands, that they may meet with us; and let us bring back the ark of our God to us, for we did not seek it in the days of Saul."  Then all the assembly said that they would do so, for the thing was right in the eyes of all the people. 

We need  to bring back the ark.  What is the ark you ask?  Ark means God's presence!  We need the "ark" in our lives on a daily basis not just in the good times but bad times as well.  We need to be more God-conscious in our lives and let the Lord lead our lives so we don't make a mess of our life. 

If you are a Stay at Home Mom (like me) here are some ways you can incorperate God-consiousness into your daily life:

1.  Print a Scripture verse or two in a large font and tape it on the bathroom mirror to meditate on it while brushing your teeth, washing your hands, putting on your makeup.  Use this same Scripture for 7 days.
2.  Pray breath prayers-sentence prayers as they come to you throughout the day.
3.  Intentionally play worship music to contemplate while cleaning house.
4.  Wake up before the family and go for a walk or jog.  Use this time not only to exercise the body but also to talk to God and listen to His voice.
5.  When outside with the children, ask them to point out a specific aspect of nature and what it might reveal about God's greatness to them.  Pray with them in thanksgiving for God's creation.
6.  Before getting out of bed each morning, offer yourself as a living sacrifice to God and ask Him specifically to make you aware of His presence throughout the day.
7.  Every time you feel anxious or the need to worry, take that as a cue to off the situation to God in prayer. 

I hope this brings some peace in your life! 

Random thoughts....

Well Wednesday I started a new Bible study  The Life of David it's a Beth Moore study.  Here is what I have learned so far.  I am a chosen child of God.  I was handpicked by the Heavenly Father to do great things here on Earth.  I also learned that there is an enemy who wants to destroy my life.  Satan tells many lies and wants to control my thought life.  WOW this Bible study was just what I needed right now. 

James 1: 1-4  James, a bond-servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ, to the twelve tribes who are dispersed abroad, greetings. Consider it all joy, my brethern, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.  And let endurace have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

Be joyful in the midst of your trials and tribulations!  God has a purpose for every trial we go through you just need to put your faith in God.  It will refine you and give you strength during your trials.  God is teaching me to turn to Him before the trials. 

Have a great week!

How was your week?

I had a pretty amazing week!  After sharing my testimony on Sunday things are going really well.  I'm basking in what the Lord did through me this week.  Pastor Jim gave me a gift card for blessing the Lord on Easter Sunday I'm on the lookout for a lady from the church that I can treat to lunch.  The Lord will help me choose who to ask on His timing.  I went to counseling on Wednesday moring and it went well.  We talked about me coming up to the church to volunteer with the volunteer ministry they have at the church.  It's not good for me to be "sitting around"  the house and not giving some time to he Lord.  We talked about Josh because I'm having some issues with getting to respect me.  It's been very difficult getting him to understand but it's very important for him to learn to respect women and those in autority.  Grant and I are putting together a family schedule so we all know what is going on in eachothers lives.  It will be very rewarding for me with my decision making I'm having issues with making and sticking to decisions.  As I find value in myself and deal with the hurt from my childhood it will get easier and I will be a stronger more confident woman of God.  I just ask that you pray for me during this time because Satan is really attacking me right now on who I am in God's eyes.  I know what God's Word says in my head but it's so important for me to believe it in my heart and right now it's just full of lies that Satan has told me.  I need alot of encouragement to keep on it's just so easy to give up and say it's too hard but that's a lie from Satan.  Well I better go and get busy on what needs to be done around the house today, so I can rest and relax tomorrow.  Have a great weekend! 

Hi! I’m Jenny, and this is a shortened version of my story. I was born April 5th 1974. My Father abandoned the family when I was 3 years old. He destroyed the house and left us with almost nothing. He dropped us off at my Grandma’s house, and we never saw him again.
Mom raised us in church, but at the same time, she was negative toward us and very angry with my Dad. I did not get along with my Mom. She constantly talk down to me and put me down- I was painfully shy. When my Father left me I felt unloved, worthless, and there was a huge whole in my heart that no one could fill.

I knew I needed something more in my life. I was 13 and in Church and heard the good news about Jesus. I took that step of faith, took my Pastor by the hand, and told him that I wanted to ask Jesus into my heart and live forever. I made that decision!! That day was the first time I realized the unconditional love of Jesus has for me. I still find it amazing that Jesus died for me and forgives me of all my sin past, present, and future.

The Lord has blessed me and taught me many things since then. Not only did I grow, but so did my Mom. My relationship with her got better and she stopped saying those hurtful words to me. She started encouraging me to live my life the way God wanted me to live. I read my Bible daily and prayed that the Lord would lead and direct my life the way He wanted me to go. I think the one thing God has taught me is how to forgive other who have hurt me and people whom I have hurt.

In 2006, my Mom found out she had brain cancer. She had brain surgery but the Dr. couldn’t remove all of the tumor. It was a very aggressive form of brain cancer. Her attitude was “God is in control”. I have never seen her with this much peace while her world was crashing down around her. She died later that year and it was very hard on me, but God saw me through.
I was still angry with my Dad, after all those years. My anger affected my marriage and my children the Lord entrusted to me. Even as one who had received God’s love and who saved me, I still had trouble receiving and giving love each day, and still struggled with feelings of worthlessness, I knew that this wasn’t God’s will for my life. I sought the Lord and received counseling. God is healing my heart, and those feelings of worthlessness are being replaced with the love that Jesus has for me. God is a miracle working God, and He is working miracles in me everyday.

One Wednesday as I put my feet on the floor getting out of bed, I felt this overwhelming peace come over me. I knew it was God speaking to my heart. He was telling me to write a letter to my Dad, forgiving him for abandoning the family and the hurt that his actions had rooted themselves in me all those years ago. I found his address and mailed it. Then I waited! Two weeks later, he responded back saying that he was so proud that I am a child of God, and that he had become a Christian as well.

God has forgiven my sins, healed my relationships with my Mom and Dad, restoring my family, and given me peace and hope for the future. I am deeply loved, fully pleasing, totally forgiven, accepted, and complete in Christ. That’s what happened to me. What about you? God bless you!